There are times when I too allow doubt to creep in when I focus on my life and it’s not where I want it to be. I challenge God in this space, and even express disappointment in how He is handling things. I don’t understand why I am still here. Yet, I know, there is nowhere else I can go to even have the life I have. So, I press on, through the thick fog of the unknown. I take deep breaths—often, to re-center myself and in order for me to not get caught up with what appears to be happening on the outside. I am learning to connect with the Love and Truth that exist within me, the Truth that I am an offspring of Divine Love and have all I need and want right here in this space.
Saint-Louis, Haiti, ( AP Photo/Dieu Nalio Chery)
When I enter this space, I become consciously aware of the Power of who I am. I become awaken and better able accept my reality for what it is. I can see Truth beyond the surface of my vexation and doubts. It is in this space, in the eye of the storm that is raging against my false sense of securities, that I experience the freedom of who I am. I began see how much I hold on to limiting beliefs, am addicted to stories of victimhood and attached to energies that only cripple my mind and keep me enslaved.
The Lady KK of Island Moms Rock being still by the beach on St. Croix, Virgin Islands
As I remain still, after being honest with how I am thinking and feeling, I begin to experience life anew and encounter the gifts of the valley, even the valley of the shadow of death. Now awakened, empowered, inspired and convicted I choose to use what I have, right where I am, to create mountain top experiences in the depth of my valleys. This happens as I share the inner Truth hidden behind my insecurities, that are exposed by the storms of life. I choose be as I am within this space, and operate from the greatness of who I am. Nothing has changed in my circumstances, except the position of my awareness. I realize when I choose to make my center the Foundation of Love and Truth, I evolve in my being. I am even able use the negativity around me, once transformed into fertilizer by the Compassion and Power of the Great One, as fuel to nurture my purpose in serving my Sisters and Brothers.
The process of being, is an organic activity of learning. It begins with being still. Then from there being honest with where I am, without any judgment. Then,
and then I act.
I will be true to how I am feeling and what thoughts I think. However, I understand that those are expressions of a limited view of Truth, an experience from a perspective, I may think is absolute, but is not. When what appears to be happening feels overwhelming to you, it is a sign you may have centered yourself on a rock of insecurity. You too may be thinking your perspective is THE perspective. It is not. Return inward, let go and seek the Truth beyond ant fear, frustration and doubt. You are a child of this great Power of Love and Truth. Let us create mountain top experiences from our valleys and be symbols of hope for those living on illusionary mountains and the many who are lost in the valleys of shadows. Within our pain and anguish, we can be beacons of hope for others in the storm, when we accept where we are, is where we need to be, to get to where we want to go. Any attempts to believe otherwise are forms of self-abuse. Don’t give up. The valley has many gifts within the storms of darkness. Share yours with me.